I have a few minutes before I have to leave for work, so I thought I'd post. My thanksgiving was wonderful. It was just what I needed - lots of time with family and lots of rest. I went back to work on Monday feeling refreshed and thankful.
I want to be more deliberate about things in my life. I feel as though sometimes I just go through the motions and sure, life still happens and I still build relationships and get things done, but I don't feel as though I am living life deliberately. I feel like my focus is all over the place... and I've just this moment realized why. I'm trying to please each important person in my life separately and completely. I should know this is impossible to do. I can't make one person happy without hurting another, that's just human nature I think. It seems I can't do anything right these days. It's time to refocus. On what's important. And I pray each thing I grit my teeth anxiously about will fall into place and those that don't I pray that God will be gracious in teaching me to deal with them.
My kids continue to be the love of my life. They brighten up my day in ways that are impossible for adults. It's getting close to the time when I tell my boss that she only has me for five/six more months. It should be interesting.
I'm still waiting on the Lord, but geez waiting takes patience, and I find that my kids drain my store of patience pretty thoroughly on a daily basis. So for me to actually be able to say that I am still waiting is all to God's glory, because He has to have given me divine patience in this area because I have waited too long to wait anymore... on my own strength anyway...
Deliberate. I want to be deliberate. I will do things deliberately, with a purpose in mind.
