I've thought about getting on here and writing several times in the last four months, but alas it never happened...
So, life at this point is happening fast. I move to Denver in two months. Almost two months to the day actually. And the reality of that sneaks up on me every day. I've known all along that saying yes to this meant that I would be leaving all my family and friends here in Texas, but honestly I've been avoiding dealing with it. Kim is going back to the summer camp she worked at last summer and while I knew this all along, the reality of it hit me last weekend when she told me she was leaving in only a couple weeks, meaning I would have to say my goodbye to her in two weeks. That hit me really hard and my drive home was quite tearful. Then I also started thinking about all the other things I have to think about when moving to another state - finding a job, finding a place to live, having enough money saved to cover all the ridiculous moving expenses and to live on if I can't get a job right away, making ends meet every month after I move, making new friends and then mostly living away from my family and friends. I really kinda had a meltdown. So over the past few days I've been spending alot of time in prayer and in Scripture, doing my best to not be the stubborn and self-reliant person I am, but to give every single one of my cares and worries up to God. I know that He will take care of my every need, but when I think about all of it together, I just feel so overwhelmed. I'm praying for the peace that passes all understanding.
And since Robin tagged me for this, I'll end with something fun...
8 things I am looking forward to
1. being married to Jeremy
2. building a new community called Refuge Community Church
3. living in the glorious mountains and enjoying non-Texas weather
4. living completely on my own for the first time... I think it will be fun
5. not having Trace in my class anymore... little devil child...
6. being able to look at job listings and not think, "Well, crap, I'm not qualified for that one either..."
7. a vacation
8. being able to remember things again
8 things I did yesterday
1. applied for a job that pays really well
2. sat in a pointless and time-wasting staff meeting
3. wore leopard ballet flats... they are super cute
4. ate homemade ice cream
5. got Trace to fall asleep... a miracle.. though it was preceeded by 45 minutes of screaming at me...
6. smiled
7. went to bed early... glorious!!
8. thanked God for the abundance of blessings He's given me
8 things I wish I could do
1. work only because I want to, not because I have to
2. travel internationally and not have to worry about money
3. speak another language
4. sing and/or play an instrument
5. be more patient
6. not learn lessons the hard way ALL the time
7. be disciplined
8. be like Jesus
8 shows I watch (I don't actually watch any TV these days, there's just no time for it, but I really enjoy all these shows and will watch the seasons on DVD faithfully)
1. The Office
2. Friends
3. Heroes
4. Lost
5. Arrested Development
6. Project Runway
7. Top Model
8. Family Guy
I'm just trying to take life one day at a time. I don't always succeed, but with God's grace I remember that His grace is enough for me.
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