I lost my job this week. On Wednesday, my preschool got shut down because of some unresolved issues with licensing and so I'm unemployed now. I realized yesterday that I don't really know what to do with myself now. I've never just been out of work like this. I'm actually kinda happy though. Even after two and a half months working there, I was still on the fence if that was the place I was supposed to be and wanted to be. I think God has greater things in store for me. What that includes I have no idea.

Yesterday I did the lazy, do nothing, mope around because I'm unemployed thing. Today I decided to not let that happen to me. I got up, took a shower, made coffee and spent a major chunk of time with the Lord. I hadn't done that in a long time and it was really good. And much needed. I didn't realize it until this morning, but I've been living with my priorities way out of whack. I would have told you that God came first and then Jeremy and then work and everything else, but in reality work sucked everything out of me and Jeremy just got my leftover energy and time and I never really made time for God at all. I think being temporarily unemployed will help me change that. Now I don't have the excuse of no time and energy for the important things. I'm dedicating myself to putting God first and foremost and Jeremy is a close second. Everything else comes after those two things. Those should be and now will be the most important things in my life.

As far as finding a new job... I have no idea what I'm going to do. It turns out that the position I was working in at Grace, I'm not actually qualified for and unfortunately that is the position that most every child care center is looking to fill. I'm wondering if maybe right now I need to find something that will benefit Jeremy and I more in terms of better pay and real benefits like vacation time and healthcare, rather than going after my heart's desire. I'm praying for wisdom. And lots of it. Because I'm clueless.

I know that God's word is true. And God's word tells me not to worry and it tells me that my heavenly Father most certainly cares for me and that He already knows all my needs. It tells me that He will give me everything I need and it tells me to rejoice when troubles come my way. God's word tells me that He is a refuge and a comfort to all those in need. And it tells me that God is faithful. It tells me that all these things are true and I believe it. I must believe it. He is my only hope. "When all around my soul gives way, He is all my hope and stay."